There's a tradition of starting new things at the beginning of a year. However, the motivation behind this blog is much deeper than that and feels like a culmination and supersession of the last 29 years of my life.
This particular moment feels like I have received the final kick up the exponentially shaped stairs of consciousness. My youth was long and flat and entailed assimilation to conventional reality. My young adulthood added some height to the stairs and activated my mind and ambition. At 27, the stairs became shorter and clearer to perceive. I began practicing Vipassana meditation and therapy at this time and still do to this day. At 28, I made investments into the multiplicity of forms. I purchased a home, invested in bitcoin, and entertained long term commitment with my girlfriend.
At this peak moment of being so completely full of the world, my worldview inverted through an act of grace. The self-centeredness and busyness became information about the truth of reality as direct self knowledge, perceived with my heart. I began letting go of what I thought life was about and who I was expected to be. Simultaneously, I was experiencing the timeless and the formless through meditative inquiry more meaningfully. It had been three years of daily practice at this point.
With these realizations, I entered a phase of burning away all of the forms that didn't support my health or hinder my connection to the ground within. Leaving me with a blank canvas where I can continue to explore subtle pings of intuition. This was the most recent kick up the stairs of consciousness that aligns archetypally with my Saturn return.
Lastly, I'm looking to come out of hiding from my hermitage in the woods. Accumulating self knowledge is only so beneficial. This is why I begin this blog-- to articulate what I'm experiencing for both my own sake and so that others might find their own path through hearing my experiences. More specifically though, I will write about spirituality, meditation, astrology, mysticism, and whatever moments or dreams I feel the need to share.
Thank you for reading these thoughts 🙇 and I am excited to continue sharing with you throughout this year and beyond. Feel free to reach out via email if you desire to contact me.
with love,
-Brenten